today din do much work cos all the staff back from cny leave and got praying and lou hei. they gambled.. so i joined them. since i no money play den they play w beer lor. i drank only a can.. but its no kick. those ppl are quite friendly ba.
went bugis to change shirt again. this time wanted to change size but no hav the size for jy so i changed another design. atleast this is better ba.. size ok for him and i think he will prefer this to the previous one. but this is nth compared to the $90 meal he treat me. coming up is our couple ring.
i dunno why my family is lidat. it jus sucks to the max. my granny walked in and ask me to eat dinner cos she wanna clear the rice and can wash the rice cooker. i merely said one sentence and is di sheng xia qi de say "i cannot rest awhile more meh" then she started kpkb. she went on to say, ask me eat dinner oso say so much. wtf? i say so much? i said ONE sentence ONLY for goodness sake. she carried on and raised her voice at me and say ask us do things we oways tok back so much. like as if i did? like when the fuck did i complain so much? ONE SENTENCE is TOO MUCH?
thanks old lady. u bad mood oso no need to vent ur anger at me. im not ur chu qi tong. im not ANYONE's chu qi tong. u angry, ur dai ji. wad for use ME? to think i still wanted to give u some of my attachment pay. now, NO WAY bitch. i will treat u the fucking same way as u fucking treat me. then she kp more and more so i bth i raised my voice back. then another bitch come out. my mum. another one. kp somemore. forever help my granny scold me even though i got no wrong. why? because her hobby is scolding me! ive got a nice mum. SUPER NICE.
she said i was wrong to raise my voice at her and whining. like hello? I ONLY SAID ONE SENTENCE. and she said i shouldnt even say anything. then what? u expect me to be a mute isit? like wtf? then she say is only chu 9 of cny and i make the house ji quan bu ning. like hello? who is the one who goes shouting here and there and making the house ji quan bu ning? like not me? wtf did i even do?
so she scold and scold. despite im so tired from work. and so stressed abt everything in the office. im learning so many new things and i hav to be on my own after learning for 2 days. and all the deadlines are like so killing me. they expect so much from me. tell me, how can i not feel stressed? dun do well, tio scolding. wtf is this. i hate my life so much.
they treat me lik junk, then dun expect me to treat them as my family. sorry, i have no family. i dun even hav a home. this is only a place for me to eat and sleep in, and that "mum" of mine i only treat her as a nobody, a nobody to me. all she has to do is gimme my allowance everyday. i hate all my family members. hate everyone of them. they sucks to the max. so, please dun ask me anything abt my family. i hav no family, sorry.
i wanna work very hard and find a job as soon as i grad, so that when im fucking 21 years old i can fucking get out of this fucking house and leave those fucking people. all they have to do is jus gimme what i need as a "mum". what she ought to do. thanks.
and ya. these few days.. im so fucking tired and stressed and worn out, i wanted to meet boyfriend today. but he rejected me again, becos of his frens, AGAIN. he says meet his frens once a week oso cannot meh? can, why not? but now that i need u, cant u be here for me meh? like for once? everytime i need u, where are u?
always not beside me.
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