it's like we're always running out of time

so i parted with the man about an hour ago by now. he was released late yesterday due to remedial training and is booking in early today because they have to leave early for training tomorrow. he will be alright, because he is my monster. <3

visited the sinseh yesterday and the "push" did not really relieve much pain at all. so i am given medication which is like one of the worst things i have ever tasted in my life. but i want to recover, so i guess no choice. waited for him to come back at his place and was watching the jap version of meteor garden. heard his footsteps and my heart kinda skipped a beat. then it was beating so loudly and excitedly then it's like jumping out! kidding. just to describe how excited and elated i was.

we went to town for a while and it is enough. to be able to be with him, to be able to feel myself in his arms again, to be able to see him the moment i open my eyes, that is enough. it's like we are always running out of time, because the time we have together is so limited. so we start to cherish every second even more. army seems like a good thing for him though. him being nice to me, i used to take it for granted. now that he is extra nicer, i must cherish it extra more.

i love you, monster.