another day gone (:

nobody's gonna love me better, i must stickwitu forever~
nobody's gonna take me higher, imma stickwitu~
you know how to appreciate me, i must stickwitu my baby~
nobody ever made me feel this way, imma stickwitu~


this job, this place, is really getting on my nerves, affecting my brain and emotions and health. i sleep with anxiety every night if i need to see loo the next day - and practically she wants to see me every single day doing the same thing so i just lose sleep every night. i wake up and come to work with fear every morning because working for her always feels so stressful, like you are scared of just typing a word wrong in email or JUST NOT PICKING UP HER CALL. i am not a person with a lot of patience, neither do i have very high tolerance level.. she is really giving me headaches and gastric pains and makes my emotions unstable. i am so getting outta here man...

i woke up especially early today, even my granny also surprised why im up so early. i left house especially early today, but still ended up late. i guess things just happen.. and most of the time when you dont want it to happen, it just happens to happens. is fate playing with me? i wonder.


saw an old lady fall down this morning, so heart breaking. i know how to feel for them, but when it comes to actions.. i dont know how to show my concern and dont know how to be a better person. even to my family. but i do cherish them alot. every time i see an elderly outside, or an old grandma/grandpa with a kid, i feel sorry... and sympathize them. ah, life.