another week starts again

been having running nose the past few days, and blocked nose, which made me cant slp well. then last night my voice started to change.. until today, i have lost my voice :( sucks to be unable to talk. and my gum is swelling too. pls let me get well soon. cny is coming! my online shopping loots are arriving soon! :)


i saw this last thurs. beautiful isnt it?

I hate having flu.
I hate to be sick.
I hate work!

Tuesday

Sian.. The headache is on & off, my temperature is up & down. Don't know what's wrong, waiting to fix appointment with the Neurologist. I want yet don't want to have any problems.

Probably I'm too tired, probably I'm too stressed, probably I have not enough sleep, probably there really is something wrong with me. Can only wait and see.

Am in a dilemma.
What's right and what's wrong? What can I do to turn back time and reverse everything? What can I do to minimize the hurt for everybody? It is all my fault to begin with. I don't know what to do now. I'm at a loss. I'm lost & all alone.

but i cant keep my hands out the cookie jar

Sick again. July seems like a very bad month for me. First, the hospitalization incident. Followed by my sprain and then today, fever and throat inflammation. I already felt something wrong with my throat 2 nights ago but I thought nothing of it. I just kept drinking more warm water, hoping more water would help. But it still got worse this morning. I hate pills! Talking about pills, I forgot what time I took them just now... When do I have to take again? Tsk, where is my monster to remind me to take my pills on time?

I think I made monster worry again. But anyway, I am looking forward to the National Day holiday! It is going to be a long weekend with the monster! :) Returning back to work tomorrow, and Saturday is going to be here very soon! That's basically what I think about every single day... About him booking out and looking forward to every weekend when I get to spend time with him.

3:02 am

yay i'm blogging at 3:02 am with a swollen right eye and swollen throat and headache and rashes and aching all over my body. doctor says its allergy, probably to nuts because of the hello panda i ate just now or probably due to seafood because i ate fish yesterday (thursday) and prawn the day before (wednesday at 老公's place) but i still love hello panda. :D well, i am allergic to so many things lah in this case. last time chinese doctor ask me to reduce bean intakes. now i have to cut down/stop nuts and seafood in order not to have this happen again. then i shall eat plain porridge from now on?

he was afraid it was dengue but luckily i dont have joint pains or whatever. just aches because of my job. he said if it gets worse tonight i have to go a&e. i lost my voice! like totally. i'm so sad. i cant see 老公 and i cant even speak to him. :( oh well. the good thing is i can rest tomorrow but the bad thing is i have to work again on saturday and sunday and i might not be even allowed to go over to 老公's place to sleepover as promised. 老公 i love you!

I..

want to join darling tomorrow badly.
have swollen eyes.
have a backache.
lost my voice.

/update 9:38pm

Swollen eye FTW


Pills, pills and more pills!