♥

"i could see in your eyes, that you honestly believed that i didn't want you anymore. the most absurd, ridiculous concept - as if there were any way that i could exist without needing you."

over loved

you make it easier when life gets hard,

its not just a saying; neither is it used to put people down; when i or people say love connects our hearts despite us being separated. because to me, i truely feel this way. that if there really is true love, no matter how far apart we may be, our hearts will always be felt by each other; our hearts will always be connected by our love; the love that only both of us share. i dont know why people cant understand. or maybe its just me being too dreamy. but i truely feel that way with monster.

i hear the cadbury advertisement again. my favourite! i like the way their eyebrows "groove" with the music.

it keeps gettin' better

i was just reading my archives and i realized, there was so much unhappiness between monster and i. so many quarrels, so much sadness and tears. but we got over it, and got better. im so happy to share these memories with him, both good and bad; happy and sad. i will never give him up again.

i love monsters

my darling is a monster, only him & i knows why. i couldnt slp last night coz i couldnt get used to slping without him after spending almost 3d2n frm fri evening to sunday evening. every time have to watch him leave, have to part every sunday, heartbreaking. i know we'll pull thru. even until now, im still trying to get used to it. don understand why thr are ppl who give up halfway and brk up w the guys while they are serving ns. they are having a hard time too. of course we will pull thru. coz i miss him & i know he is missing me too. bmt must b damn tough. :(

ankle's xray report was out this afternoon. nurse called me and said results normal, so i guess no prob. but idk why after 1 week it still hurts. i still cant walk down the stairs properly and it still hurts a lot once i start walking a little dist. plus standing on trains and buses, have to balance on my right leg. i hope it recovers soon. cant wait to go kite flying w the monster. today i jump into the train at bv station. coz the ppl alighting so i had to w8 for them to come out then i can board. but the stupid driver so fast press door closing, i go in half only the door close! i jumped in and i forgot abt my ankle for a second and ouch. super sharp pain for lik 5 mins before it starts to go off a lil bit. :(

love is all around.
i am in love, she is in love, he is in love, they are in love. we're all in love. love's wonderful! love is in the air! we love to love! & i love my monster darling! <3

for you <3

为什么你 总是闷闷不乐
你知不知道 你是最好的
这首歌 我唱这首歌 就是要给你快乐

世界上只有你独一无二
我为你添上幸福的颜色
这首歌 我唱这首歌 你要专心的听着

说你也一样爱着我
有一个温暖角落 那是我心窝
把你的爱收起来 放进我的口袋
不让你轻易离开
我会永远爱着你
到老还是同一句 因为我珍惜
轻轻地摇着篮椅 带着老花眼镜
还记得我们这首歌

hehe

darling's way of expressing may be fierce and not sweet but i know its all because he cares. its so weird, cause i love it when he scolds me. :P

imma happy girl!

darling came to meet me for lunch today. partly because he needed to take his ipod shuffle from me. 3rd generation, everything is so small.

there was a sudden strong emotion flowing through me the moment i saw him. so damn happy that i cant stop looking at him and smiling to myself. he has turned darker but he's still my cutest darling. listened to some stories, some jokes and i missed the times we ate together and talk like there's no tomorrow! very happy to see him today, really. i'm seeing him again tomorrow afternoon when he's back in msia. he cant contact me now cause he finished all his overseas balance when he was in erm... redang. talking about hand phones... i'm switching to prepaid soon so i will no longer be using my current number. i hope people do care about getting my new number.




met up w jiahui in the evening for some shopping. we did a good deed today. we went around looking for cat food and containers and thinking of ways to feed a stray cat outside far east plaza. so poor thing. there was this black man who kept throwing mint sweets at the kitten. i wanted to turn around and just yell at him for not only littering but also for animal abuse! its ok if you dont like kittens... you dont have to abuse it! this is singapore, mind you. & kittens are such nice creatures! and people were like shooing it away. come on... it's not like they will eat you up or eat all your food up.


this was the dress which i tried on few days ago when i was out w the girls. very nice dress, but my breasts are not big enough so blame it on my lousy figure. haha cannot wear because bust area too loose. but its really nice! now i'm cracking my head on what to wear for d&d which is coming like... very soon!




received my graduation photos and they come in this frame thingy. the frame actually quite cheap skate lah but never mind. might be the last time im wearing grad robe and taking grad pics! so might as well keep it as remembrance. but of course i hope its not the last time though. want to upgrade myself as much as possible. :)


and i realized i wasnt looking at the right camera in the full length photo. & the grad robe makes me look so short.

i know what i want. & i'm working towards it.
i love you darling!

priceless

happy fathers' day! :)
thank you daddy for giving me life so that i can meet my darling. thank you darling's daddy for giving darling life so that i can meet him.

i just came home from his place. went over to give darling's daddy a present and its so nice to see him smile like this. he seldom smile, he is a very stern man and he looks fierce. but deep down, he is someone who cares for his home, his family, his wife and his kids. he may be very loud all the time and scold darling often but in fact, he dotes on darling a lot. he would buy all darling's favourite food and keep at home and when darling is sick, although he did not say but he is actually very worried. but he just doesnt know how to express himself. he is actually a very nice man and i really like him. :)

im so happy to see darling's dad and mom so happy. his dad was really cute just now. the happiness at that moment, that expression on his face and his mom's teary eyes.... all priceless. im glad they are happy, and im happy when they are happy. especially when darling is not around, im glad i can help darling take care of his parents and make them happy. i treat them like parents to me, just like the way the think of me as their child. im really happy. :)

/update
i suddenly miss my darling alot alot. going to his place without him around, sleeping without talking to him, phone calls are always so short, nobody to tell me what to do and what not to do. its always late at night when the feeling of missing him is so strong... im going to lose sleep again tonight.

you're always on my mind, all day just all the time

been so long since i did blogged. i am so tired from work every day, especially now that my lover is in army because it means insomnia and less sleep because i cant sleep till he's next to me.


i have recently started wearing hair band to work to keep my fringe up. i dont really care about how i really look anymore because the outer isn't that important and what's more, i am alr someone's woman. heh. :* it also helps to clear my forehead, hopefully lessens the pimples popping out. its really sickening to keep getting pimples on my used-to-be-pimple-free face & forehead. i remember myself having a nice complexion because i dont have pimples except for big ones on my nose tip once in a while. and when i say big, its really big! i think i need more sleep and eat more healthy fruits.


been to lot 1 a few days ago and realized they have something called the roof garden on the movie level outside the mall. i think they got the concept from vivo. although it feels like they are copying, the word concept makes it sound nicer.


i went for the fish therapy somewhere near ang moh kio & bishan area. i didnt dare to put my legs in initially because the fishes were really scary! the moment your leg is nearer to the water, visible to them, they will just swim over crazily like they have been hungry for a thousand years. but of course i plucked up courage and put in if not the money spent would be wasted. there was this 'buy 2 get 1 free' kinda package so actually, i did it for free. the feeling was damn funny and its very ticklish. it was a great experience though. would go back again because your legs really feel better and smoother after everything. its a 1 hour thing so 30 mins of letting the fish eat your dead skin and tickle you and 30 mins of foot/body massage. i chose the foot one because i thought the body one might hurt more since i havent tried before. but the foot one was not much better lah. it hurts at some parts as well but after that the feeling was quite good. and the man was explaining to me why certain parts will hurt more and what's the course of it. and i think it's really accurate. but actually my feet feels a bit 'sour' now. but its all worth it! at least i love touching my feet now. so smooth! rejuvenated!


i also chiong finish BOF aka Boys Over Flowers. like any other typical girl who fantasize about having such handsome boyfriend and suave men as my guardian angel. but they are really breath taking. but such men dont really exist in real life do they? i always see them only in shows. so i always dont believe that such good things will happen in real life. or maybe i just dont have the luck & fate to meet such people in my life. a commoner like me, i am just satisfied to have my man who is serving the national service and becoming an even more man real man for the country & his beloved girl! :D



but come to think of it, lee min ho & jerry yan really do look alike dont they? i think they resemble each other so much that i really always see both of them whenever lee min ho's face shows in the drama.

talking about this lover of mine, he's booking out really soon! i'm really looking forward to saturday! i wish i can hug him tight for a good 30 mins (which still isn't enough at all) the moment i see him. i so miss that warm hug of his because he's big and it feels like i'm entirely covered in his arms. i miss his kisses and his nice & special smell. but he'd be in his uniform, too bad. i'm going to cherish even more, all the moments we get to spend together. because you'll never know when will there be no tomorrow. and if tomorrow never comes, i want him to know how much i love him, and other people in my life. i cant live without him, i know he feels the same way too.

good night darling, & good night to myself.

please dont take my sunshine away

new wallet photo. entire set of twilight books (http://kiynuhcnat.blogspot.com). my dear is the best to me. :)

road of love (爱情路)

爱情路 有种缓慢的幸福
伴随一点辛苦
相遇是幸福 等待是辛苦
爱情路 有了你我什么都顶的住
这一路上所有的顽固
到最後 都值得被祝福

i love you every day.

3 words, 8 letters

yesterday marks 3 years and 2 months of our relationship. :) just got home from a whole day with darling. feeling sad, feeling happy. very mixed emotions because friday is approaching very very soon...

the early bird catches the worm! darling and i went out very early to get his viewty fixed and we had a few cups of coffee there. as i always say, i always like the times we get to sit down and just chat. and we chat like we've known each other for a thousand years.

then we walked around bugis and went to guan yin temple to pray. i, of course, prayed for his safety. thats all that matters to me right now. :)

in the late afternoon, darling taught me how to cycle around the void decks. i think im the worst student ever! im very scared of falling, and its damn hard to balance. maybe because im lousy lah. and i hurt darling today. :( his lower leg near the ankle is in pain now and a little swollen because the tires just bua over it and his toes too. im so sorry my dear, i really didnt mean to. i must really learn how to cycle so that next time i wont be a burden to him. :)

finished fixing my keroro, but forgot to take a photo of it. its damn cute, and i want to collect more. you dont need celebrations and extravagant gifts or expensive food to make the day special. its just doing things we like together, and just doing things together. regardless of what we do, or where we are. i think the most important is the person you are with. and of course, i love every minute spent with you, my dearest. happy 38 months to you, and us. <3

Love paradise

You're always on my mind
All day just all the time
You're everything to me
Brightest star to let me see
You touch me in my dreams
We kiss in every scene
I pray to be with you through rain and shiny days

I'll love you till I die
Deep as sea
Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go
Need you all my life
You're my hope
You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life be our love paradise

love melody

zx: LOL of course! a working adult cherish weekends, so spent yrs wisely! hahahaha

true enough. never looked forward to and loved weekends so much. i have only been working for 3 days and i alr feel exhausted. i haven't got used to it yet and w all the support from darling, darling's mom and my goals and the ideal future i want, i will slowly get used to it and enjoy it! and i think it's a part of growing up, my relationship w my family is getting better day by day. and i realize more things, cherish more things (and people too) and am trying to be better.

so i spent the day at home i joined my family for a dinner at warren country club. the theme was love and everyone has free magazine, Just Married. so i was reading it throughout the dinner cause i'm always wanting to be a better girlfriend for darling and learn all i can to a better spouse (hopefully) for him in the future. haha. :)

so i've decided to type the inspiring parts out and i hope everyone who chances upon my blog can pick up something too. :)